Silence like a cancer grows

 

Just added this to my playlist.

It is helping more than I can explain. What I want is to call him. Say hey. I need to talk to you. And yet I know either he cares and wants to play games or he doesn't care and wants me gone. 

Either way, I sit in these sounds of silence. 

He knows the phone works same as myself. And I won't go to him because he's already hurt me with words. Lol. I may be masochistic but honey I don't want to hurt emotionally anymore. Physically sure. 

I'm not high. Just here. Sitting in those silence periods, listening to my breath, 

S