Hey reader,
I've been instructed by Izzard to diary entry. Why? Because she said it would be good for clearing any karmic energy.
Do I want to? No. I'm rolling and jamming.
Will I? Yeah, cause Izz knows her shit. Love you weirdo.
So uh, shh don't read this or something.
I don't want to break out pen and paper.
I think my life is going to calm down soon and I'll go back to monotony. 🤞fingers crossed so hard I can feel it.
While I'm happy I started dreaming again, I'm tired boss. I've been going through old and new music (YouTube shows me the weirdest shit) and like...
I feel good.
Well I don't, but I do. Music helps tremendously. Especially when I don't avoid the songs that made me feel a long time ago.
I've been changing the song or skipping too much and my brain said no skips anymore. Take what comes and just roll wth it. Is it vastly better when I'm high? Yup
Also. I AM eating, just one very small meal a day. I promised to Bastian I would eat. I was able to get a small nap of 3 hours and it killed off my hunger pains for the moment.
I'm in pain and I want to kind of fade but the next best thing is letting go of everything.
Like. In less than 2 years time I'm moving, whether I let people know or not. I'm not staying stagnant.
The land is there. I just have to go get on it. It sounds simple but it's annoying and timely.
Bleh.
Oh god.
Smut Metal is hilarious when I'm high.
No, but really. 2 new artists I started following. Both dudes but I'm sure I will see a lady soon enough. Kinda hot, like booktok wise- also fucking hilarious when you have the IQ of a boil because you overindulged on purpose.
Don't worry myself.
You're not fucking up again tonight.
We got a plan. Sort of. Reddit! Because what's says keeping myself out of trouble more than hanging with a bunch of angry people's?
Yessssss
Ok so I'm going to take some allergy meds and kind of kick it til my body gives out. 🤞 Please be soon. No dreams just black.
As always and never
S
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