I got sleep!

 So I meant to use this song last night but I, in all of my out of it wonder, couldn't remember what the fuck the song was. Keep in mind I had just listened to Maroon5 so I thought it was pretty, fml I never listened to the lyrics. Anyway!

I got a bit like 7 hours of sleep last night! Whoo! Football! 

Explains why I hurt more all over bahahaha

But for real I am happy I got to sleep regardless of how sleeping effected me. 

I don't think dream recap is necessary here. I'm trying to do the 'not look at it so it goes away' type of thing I'm best at. 

So it's Friday, tomorrow is Saturday, and I am going to attempt to leave the house for killing shit. No, reader, I'm not going homicidal. Literally have a meet in the park every Saturday for war games.

I kind of want to get out. Plus my roommate promised to go once so I gotta make the best of it for them 😜 

I promised I won't laugh when they get beat down. 

Drake just told me over his shoulder it's still not nice but I'm waiting because ...

He threatens to kick my eldest ass weekly. Not mean or seriously, it's cause they're 3 years apart and they act more like brothers than roomies. 

Wondering if my youngest is going to go for the expressed reason of trying to kick his ass ...

Roomie knows I can't win in a fight so I'm chilling, I have a while before I can do battle games, quite a long while.

In the world of meh, physical therapy did not help but they also didn't schedule me again. More than likely because the physical therapist told me he's going to end up doing more hurt than good trying to fix me.

So going back to the neurosurgeon on the 1st and going to attempt surgery. Surgery round 2, electric boogaloo. 

I'm a lil scared as I could be paralyzed but I'm also kind of ok with it. Would it suck ass to be paralyzed? Yeah but only for reasons no one else will get. 

Oh oh ohhhhhh

Ginger of all people were in my dream last night and no, absolutely not. 

Like the dream started off as me waking up this morning and someone knocks on the front door but I'm in the back and so Drake answers the door and he is telling me to just go back to bed. Lol. Almost exactly what he'd say too. But I didn't because she kept knocking. 

If any shark bait ooh ha ha looking ass comes to my door today I'm going nuts. Ok maybe not cause I can't move every well, but I'm going with practice my screaming face anyway. 

Joking aside, no universe, absolutely not. 

I can't trust women because of you. Like at all. Which is ok for me right now because I'm flip flopping but 

No. Nooo. NOOO.

On a rather similar note, I'm able to feel slightly again. Ok that doesn't sound right. I kind of lost my ability to feel feel. Nope, wrong sounding again. 

I went numb a while back. Like. I couldn't feel anything. That better? Yeah kinda. 

Ok so update, I'm going to a ren faire in Gustine next Saturday. So much planning oh man. Wait. This Saturday I'm war gaming, next Saturday ren faire. Heck yeah. Breaking out my wheel chair cause fuck walking in heels. 

What am I gonna wear???

Fuckkkkk. Ooh wait I have a jewel tone ball gown that could definitely work. Fairy ears, check. 

I'm pumped y'all. I've been a hermit since April, well maybe after June I was more of one. 

I went to DC in June and it was kinda neat. A lot of museums and people. Not a fan of people but museums were neat. 

Never been to Gustine so I'm hoping it is nice. It's run by a friend of ours, like the 3rd or 4th ren faire in the same state. I have friends in all of the places just can't go there often. 

Ok! 

Imma go get tea and be like a cat. Or something. 

Also I'm willing to bet that getting 🍃 is effecting my memory badly. Like chunks of time are now missing. Holy tiramisu Batman, is memory loss that fucking easy? Yesssssssssss

Ok

Ok.

As always and never

S