Let the words flow

 

Hey reader.

Allergies kicking my butt. I got with a friend online and we threw around buzzwords. I was quick to say I wouldn't be with someone I'd already been with. It's just that I ...

A. I don't know. I guess depending on the situation. Case by case. 

B. I'm currently hurting inside and I don't know if I can trust someone or anyone really. 

C. I fuck shit up myself so there's that.

Uncanny valley guy has been a bit quiet today. I'd be worried except I don't ... I guess I am ok being quiet. I'm ok with the emptiness of silence right now. 

I used to crave attention in many forms and I just don't anymore. I think something broke. But it's ok! Why? Because I'm good with blending into the shadow. I'm ok with being on the sidelines. I'm in no hurry either way. 

I am dreading Thursday and Friday as I have 2 11 hour shifts back to back. Bleh. I'm going to be exhausted. 

Saturday I am off though! I'm pumped. I'll be going to the park with my eldest and youngest to go mow down midgets. It's going to be nice. I know that sounds worse than it really is. We larp, it's live action role playing and we use foam covered weapons. There are a shit ton of teenagers there. I like screaming random words as I run at them. 

I've tried

Allonsy!

Avante!

Bears!

Liberty!

Yeah. Also my eldest likes shouting Butt Scratcher! It's how we let everyone know we're ready to fight. 

Strange? Absolutely. But hey, it beats bed rotting. 

Always

S