Hurt

 

Hey reader. 

Fuck this hurts. I keep having a voice in my head saying I'm going to pass away on my birthday. It's probably my stress psychosis. When I get upset too much I hear shit. Beats full blown schizophrenia right? Fuck. I started taking an old antidepressant I had and it helping me not break down every hour but fuck it hurts. 

I have to do things and the government is going to remove the check from bank account, so that's going to be unpleasant. Put me in the negative. I'm worried but trying not to freak out. 

Am I going to make it? Surely with time. Does it feel like I'm being crushed by a semi truck? Absolutely. 

Fuck. 

S