Hey reader. I wish I could say I'll be sleeping soon, but that'd be a lie.
And I had to come back because I was messaged about something I didn't think of. Like err how it was perceived.
I'm the bad guy.
The reason I want to remove memories- pay attention now- is I have abandonment issues and PTSD from completely fucking different timelines.
It doesn't involve abuse from someone. Well the PTSD does but that's like neither here nor there.
I don't know if getting brain wiped would effect memories that matter.
Fuck. Not... That matter in the rest of my life. No, not better.
I was ok, I was fine. And then all hell breaks loose in my chest in a manner of days. Could it be the meds I was taking beforehand helped numb me? Holy crap. Maybe?
I'll talk to the doctor Tuesday. And hopefully be back to silence. I was good at hermitting.
They wish for no contact and I'm accepting this. I just want them to not ever cross my mind.
The guy I made friends with? He reminds me of you. For so many reasons. Uncannily.
Anyway.
I'm hurting and tryna be sober. Here's nothing.
S
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