Post Shower

 

I look a mess but hey, I'm clean and I can smirk. That's how life goes right? 

Eldest is on the computer, Drakes computer. And youngest is showering. Technically middle kidlet is showering too but at a different house. 

Yey. 

I get at least one day off next week so I'll survive. I dunno about the following week though. It's ok. 

I'm off the 23rd, Monday. I have a Social Security appointment via phone and then I'm just gonna catch up on laundry I think. 

"Can't hang out, I'm washing my clothes." Lol can't believe I can use that as an excuse but it works. My therapist is worried about me being numb. She shouldn't be. Be worried I am disassociating. Be worried I am afraid of losing any type of sanity if my kids leave.

Don't be worried I'm numb. I have been numb before. Long time ago I went completely cold and tried to off myself. I got over it just couldn't trust men for the longest. 

Now I can't trust women. Not sure how I feel about dudes. Certain dudes sure but most can go away. 

Egh. 

Anyway. Going to charge my phone and stuff. 

As always

S