I Need You

 

Hey reader. It's uhh 945 PM and I can't sleep. My alarm (last one to ring) will go off in exactly 8 hours. Fuck. 

I want to sleep. Escape the reality for a while and let my body heal. However I can't. 

Sometimes you gotta face reality and let it screw with you. Let the pain wash over you because you know it's part of life. 

Let everything come as it may. 

Tomorrow starts Mercury in the microwave. Not gonna lie, not looking forward to it lol. Way things are going already I don't think we need it in the microwave. 

Talked to a random guy about trad wives today. Weird ass thing to talk to a cashier about but I'm not judging. Ok I'm judging a little bit. 

He said trad wives are the girls who grew up wanting to be a housewife. With the baby dolls and such. 

He made some valid points and some very strange points. It was nice to have a completely different viewpoint TBH. 

I see him everyday I work. Which is neat. He's nice enough. And I need friends. 

I'm staying celibate for now, have been really since ... Yeah. 

I don't have hoes in different area codes. As much as I would enjoy that lol. I don't have enough time for that. 

I'm truly a hermit right now. I exist for being mother and worker. That's about it. Life is much more busy than I ever expected and I hurt all the time. 

Yay back surgery maybe. 

Fuck, reader. I'm in a tight spot. And I don't know what to do. If I keep this up I'm going to hurt myself. If I don't keep it up I don't know if we will survive. 

And meeting fights about everything every time I do anything. Literally being told I am going to waste money because I need something to drink on a FUCKING NINE HOUR SHIFT. Ffs

I'm beyond livid about this woman. 

It's ok. 

I just need to keep positive and something awesome will happen. I just wish it would hurry up before I end up hurting myself again. Dammit. 

Always,

S