Hey reader. Hurting a lot tonight both physically and mentally but I am still pushing through.
So many people stopped today at work to tell me their condolences and it hurts but I kept myself together.
A random dude on IG told me how sexy he found me and I was like. Read the room. I lost my husband a month ago. Please DNI if you're after noods.
He apologized and saw his way out. I just let it be because I am too old for that nonsense.
Will I ever marry again? Yes, the palm reader told me. However I am in no way interested in anything or anyone right now.
I can't take a shower without music because I remember how he would peek around the curtain and sing "boobies!" It was his favorite thing. Boobies. Ok maybe it's every mans favorite thing, but still.
You know the catchy meme song about "6 1, blue eyes," etc? I just want someone who will love me. But I am willing to wait til the universe figures out the logistics first. Wait til I am healed enough to laugh without feeling guilty.
Dunno when that will happen but it's ok.
I am confident the universe knows. And I hope whomever comes into my life is prepared for the absolute shit show that is my family.
I mean that with all my heart. My kids are fucking nuts in the best way.
S
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