Hey reader. Having a rough day but going on a *trip* with my roommate and Drake cause why tf not.
Yes, that kinda trip.
Cause yeah flying high and getting giggles and watching trippy shit.
My cats are mad at me because I ran out of their favorite treats. Oof. 2 weeks til more treats. If I die in my sleep from being suffocated by a furrball, blame Burrito. She's a lil mad.
Watching Rango I think, half way on and halfway off.
Griffin and I have actually communicated a lot more in the last few weeks than usual. I don't think I wanna ride that train though. At least not yet. He just lost his dad like this year or last and the only way I wanna see him if he's passing through and no like seriousness.
I talked to Ares not terribly long ago but that was mainly just to see how he's been. I suck. Sooooo hard. On communication.
Like I don't answer sometimes for weeks. And then sometimes I'll feel ok enough to speak to people but like in tiny doses. I'm too stressed for this nonsense.
And to the idgits who are trying to find out my allergies, go fuck yourself with a rusty spoon.
You won't. And I won't tell you. Stop obsessing over this. Only dipshit I'd need to tell anyone is my nurse. And I don't plan on going to the doctor for a while. Anyway.
Yeah. Anyhoo. Things got a lot better and sliding back into stupid thinking. It's like "Woo boy this fuck hates me, so I really wanna lean into that non-existent connection" except I don't. I want to push further and further away until they forget my name.
Until the mountains crumble to the sea. Darling. Darling. Stand, over there. Why? Because lying to me. Because making me feel less than human because YOUR friends and loved ones wanted to hurt me. Yeah. Go take your fake sense of worry or whatever mental fucking illness you have, and stick it so deep up your own ass I never hear it again.
Keith I stg if you're still reading this shit, just leave it be dude. Go watch Aliens again and find a hobby.
I want isolation. Because I don't want to deal with people.
Ffs
As always
S
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