God What Have You Done?

 

Reader I manage to get myself into the strangest of situations but right now, I have to figure out what it is I want.

Have a 28 year old in Dallas who wants to meet and uhh... Uhh... More than meet. 

I told him I can't without emotional connection. 

His response is to make one. So uhh.

That's what I've been doing most of today. 

I never even asked his name. To me it matters not. I want a different hurt inside. And while my methods are dumb, it works. 

Anyway. What is it with me and virgins for real. Not... Not that I want to do that but that's the reason he contacted me. 

Round 2 electric boogaloo. 

Oh reader I am not the smartest in the bunch. I think the only thing we can agree on is patron is nice. Been months if not a year since drinking but he wants to bring a veritable mini bar here. Bahahaha fuckkkk

Dammit S, you're better than this. 

I know but I feel less than zero?

Ok, well we will work on it. One tiny thing at a time. 

Maybe he's the loml and I just don't know it yet. 

As it were,

S