I wanted to go and get they hold me back

 

They were going through their own things and I couldn't just ignore them. Now I'm supposed to do not hourly but something like check ins. Because I don't want to live in a world without him. Is it retarded, maybe. 

You had to of been there. All this time the voice in my head is the same as his. And I love it and hate it.

I can't change how he feels, which is nothing. 

But I can change how I feel. 

Drive so fucking far away so I never see your face. 

Why now. After all this time. Why now. I love you but I don't want to. Is it karma? 

I gotta go get dressed because I'm going out. Weird transition. I missed my opportunity to off myself again. Although this time I have to thank Bastian. Without them I don't know what I would have accomplished. 

Get out of my head so I can get over you. Take back your energy it's no good to me. 

Hate me the way I hate myself. Don't be nice, Stab the screw deeper into my heart. So I can heal.